
Catching Feelings
Do you even remember your first crush? Are you aware that a crush is now called “catching feelings”. I do remember this. I recall desperately looking for a way to let him know how I felt, but I needed to be able to present my love to him in a deeper, more profound way that did not involve me talking. So I made a mix-tape. That’s right this is now called a “playlist” of songs that communicated all the feelings in my heart and transferred Them to him through the magic of music and who had a better understanding of my passions, my thoughts, Than REM and Bono?
Seriously though, what I am getting at is sometimes you don’t need words to make someone feel something or understand your feelings for them. Even without words, music can evoke such emotions. Major chords make us happy, minor chords sound sad and can make us a bit wistful. Some songs are so moving you want to cry. The language and power of music is one of life’s greatest mysteries and its greatest joy.
For me, flowers and music share this same wonderful quality. A language without words where feelings are expressed through beauty.
I am an intuitive artist. I let the feelings flow from my heart and out through my hands. I started this career as many do by making beautiful things for my family and friends. When my flower work was just a hobby, I was so happy to make a loved one feel loved by giving them one of my arrangements. I didn’t need words to show emotion, I used flowers. Now this has become my career and frankly, sometimes I think I am not worthy. It is an unbelievable feeling of responsibility to make something on the behalf of someone with the intention to express their emotions, to create their message without words. I admit I was unprepared for how that would make me feel; the honor of expressing emotion, the grief, the sympathy…the joy and the love. Sometimes, I admit it, I pray that the right materials will come to me and that I will see the one special thing, the one special way of arranging that will present the intangible, the unspoken emotion, and put it forward on display. And your love, your feelings, the messages you want to send never fail to guide my hands
Well, I never did make a mixtape that made someone fall in love with me. I didn’t even make a mixtape that brought an ex and me back together. But the important thing is I tried. I tried to express myself without words and show emotions without speaking them out loud. And I took the chance to throw my feelings out there and little by little I saw the magic that they made happen when others “caught” my feelings of love. Because that’s the magic that’s all around us just looking to be found. Wordless and unspoken messages of love sent out to fly with the birds and the butterflies around our heads. Take a chance and try to catch them. It’s a beautiful day to feel love.